TG Extraordinary

Wrong Impression

tingguan82 — Sun, 12 Dec 2010 02:09:47 +0000

Well of all, I guess I haven’t learnt my lesson after all the rubbish that I have created since my previous encounter in my company event. Nothing new as I have drunk a bit more than usual in company dnd since it is free flow and I drank my heart out.

Yes I was high and tipsy. I talked a lot of rubbish, my words doesn’t make any sense but yet I am still able to make my way home with some help. Manage to hitch a ride home which is good. Sadly, I guess I have made a nuisance of myself and didn’t hold back on myself. Perhaps it is part of the attention seeking measures. Though I understand, being hero will end up me being a zero.

All I can do is to pray that the impact isn’t that great. Please give me some face and hope that I didn’t talk any more rubbish to offend anyone.

It is already Sunday. Hence I just want to enjoy a little bit of relaxation before I embark to the new week.

I am heading out for a small shopping and look see. Maybe will get something small and nice for my friends for this festive season.

Own mountain

tingguan82 — Wed, 24 Nov 2010 13:32:49 +0000

I can conquer Mt Faber and Bukit Timah Hill but can I conquer my own Himalayas.

I am taking the chance to rest more at home, slowly do my soul searching. So many wants but which one do I really really want and can excel in it?

There are so many things that money can buy.

A car

A full frame DSLR camera

And many more items…

I am not satisfied….

I need to fill up myself up.

Can I do it?

tingguan82 — Sat, 19 Jun 2010 20:29:13 +0000

2010 has been an exciting one for me so far with a couple of completions.

Aviva Ironman 70.3 2010 6h35min

Sundown Marathon Ultra 12h55min

Laguna Phuket Marathon 2010 5h45min (Leisure run since I crashed in)

Next races will be SAFRA Army Half Marathon 2010, which I prepared to crash in and not forgetting Standard Chartered Marathon Singapore 2010, which I will be running as a pacer.

To be a fast runner 4h

To be a even fast runner 3h30min

To be 2X fast runner Below 3h (If I can, I will become Singapore Top 5)

Is it possible?

I love running and even through I am not fast but I like to run.

I like the feeling to be ahead of people. Perhaps that is what I do best since it compliments my competitive nature. Then again, I slack too much and never put in the amount of time and effort to put me into the league.

What is my career path? I have no idea since it is too slow and bleak for my own good. I am making small steps and progression but the results aren’t significant. Sometimes, it is an easy way out to throw in the towel to say “I have enough and I accept the fate that I am weak and pathetic.” Still I hate to do it.

I am a normal person who wishes to be extraordinary but can I really be extraordinary?

I am the manager of my own life. I want to be the legacy that people remember and acknowledge that I am good and break away the trend of being normal.

God, please give me that special gift, perseverance and determination.

B.E.L.I.E.V.E

tingguan82 — Tue, 09 Feb 2010 11:37:42 +0000

Gradually I realized that I am becoming more uncertain about myself. I think I put it enough effort but it doesn’t seem so. Especially when uncertainty strikes in, it kind of make matters worse.

Whether to make a career switch?

Am I doing the right thing to follow my dream?

Am I working hard or progressively enough to fulfil my dreams?

There are so many things which I am unsure and not certain about.

When it comes to money and finance, it is all about doing the right job to generate the right kind of revenue. Obviously I am not doing the right job to fulfil my dream. Then again another saying is whether you are suitable to be the one to be holding onto the position to fulfil that dream.

I feel all alone and lazy to do what I should do.

Perhaps I am not driven enough or I never write down what I really want to focus and pull it though.

So will I become successful?

Will I become a Ironman?

Will I become the one who will change and build a closer and stronger family?

I don’t know.

Perplexed

tingguan82 — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 00:02:13 +0000

Despite the fact that I said I had thought of contingency and prepared for the worst case scenaio, I can’t deny the agony crippling in my heart.

No point crying right now if I want both of us worked out. I need results immediately to prove myself and my worthness. Things seem to be well between both of us but it is what unseen that could have destoryed her and eventunally both of us. She doesn’t want me to feel hurt but I needed to feel that pain.

Yes, we are both young and we can move on with our own lives but I don’t want to give up. Because she is worth it, and I told her before I will give her my best. And I really mean it wholeheartedly. May the good Lord give me guidance and wisdom.

Just want to say Thank You

tingguan82 — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 01:27:58 +0000

It is just another early morning that I wake up to prepare to go to work. It will be another day of standing and serving customers and see sometimes how unreasonable customers can be at times. Nevertheless it is important for me to be thankful that I still have the chance to learn and gradually improve in what I am weak on and what I want to improve. When there is a chance, there is an opportunity for breakthrough. Just feel that it is important to say Thank You for different friends from my walk of life. Because people around you are the ones who bring you the colors and memories for you. Most importantly, my 3 brothers who are important to me.

Darren Heng, Alex Lim and Andy Lim. 3 individual brothers from my different part of my life.

Jackass, Noel, Jeremy, Brandon and KK. Jingfeng, Gary and Lionel.

Just some random reflections when I wake up. I don’t have a big group for me to hang around like what people always think TG is forever busy.

There are still other friends who are important to me too like Shiying, Junyi and many more.

Without friends around, life can be really lonesome for me. I miss everyone.

And not forgeting my beloved little girl, Jiamin, cos she is my sweetheart.

Be the man I want to be

tingguan82 — Fri, 07 Aug 2009 08:35:49 +0000

With the recent news of this CEO who died during OSIM triathlon, I find it is shocking and saddening. Firstly I feel that he is 44 years old, CEO and his future is bright and not forgetting he will be quite well off. Secondly, his daugther is only 12 years old. Thirdly, he is the fittest among all and I would say he is a good idol for an all-round but yet he was “betrayed” by his own heart. That is really depressing.

Alex always said God is fair. If you are short, you will be handsome or rich. If you are fit, maybe you aren’t that outspoken. If you can talk, you can talk all you want but not the girls you like will fall for you. If you have everything above and it is positive for you, good for you because you hit the right jackpot. Nevertheless be contented on what you have and be happy in what you do.

Even through I wish I can be rich, I want to be rich, I want to have the fame and attention but nevertheless you still need that slight tint of luck so keep it chill and easy.

I always used to like hanging out, drinking and wanting to be part of the hip and fun group but gradually I realized that staying at home and taking things easy are still what I prefer and do since I was a introvent when I was young.

No one is bornt to be smart and sociable. Everyone requires some time and effort before he or she transforms into who he is or what he can become. Talent itself is not enough but hardwork and development of one’s strength is definitely important.

I remember my dream that I want to become. Ting Guan, the ironman triathlete. Ting Guan, the photographer. Ting Guan, the business entrepreur and motivator. I know there is much for me to learn to become what I want to become and the biggest problem that I have is patience and assistance from the right people.

It all boils down to individual good habits on nuturing one’s self on what you do and what you believe. I am thankful to have a nice supportive girlfriend who gives me the liberty and freedom on doing what I want to achieve and watching anime such as naruto and basquash which give me insights and inspiration on those i believe and love. Somehow I think I really need to think through and realign what I really want and become.

Guess it would be good if I can have a mentor to keep on track… I am *hungry*…

tingguan82 — Sun, 24 May 2009 01:14:11 +0000

It might be just the 1st week of reservist. My mind has been dwelling with different matters. When you meet a group of people with cars, talking about how easy to spend their money and lifestyle, you keep on thinking what you really want with your life.

Sometimes knowing what you want in life, it isn’t enough because you need to execute actions to make you closer and doesn’t mean you know what you want, you would get it.

Hardwork is the key.

I love my little Jiamin, with her presence around me which makes me feel comfortable and safe. It may sound ridiculous for a 27 years old guy to say this about how a 21 years old girl can make him feel this way.

With my current income and status, I feel really slow and stagrant. I have always being impatient and uncertain, and for once I really need a sense of direction and guidance to lead to where I want to achieve and get.

Feel-ing

tingguan82 — Wed, 13 May 2009 00:37:06 +0000

My aunt said that my girlfriend is a good catch and I should take good care of her. I seriously think so I hope that I don’t fall below the expectations. Most people will complain that time passes too fast and seldom say it is too slow.

My time with her is just nice. I appreciate my little baby as who she is and I feel fortunate that I have her in my arms. My shortcomings might sometimes seem so ridicilious and stupid. 27 this year, years are still counting and adding on onto my number. I thank her for accepting me as who I am, talking to her, hanging out with her, meeting up with my friends and etc.

Every individual is unique and different. Perhaps it is the power of being mutual understanding and acceptance which make it so special.

With you, I feel stronger and want to fight my regular battle more and more.

Change

tingguan82 — Thu, 26 Mar 2009 02:27:50 +0000

3rd day of my leave…

I didnt do much constructive matter at the moment.

I manage to meet my little girl which makes me really happy. Always find comfort and she is around. I really appreciate her. I cant shower her with gifts but I have words and will use more actions to show my appreciation to her.

This week supposed to be the time for me to scout for tuitions and etc. Guess I am a bit nua and unmotivated, perhaps like what everyone say I got too many things in my mind which distract me.

On another hand, my inferior complex is a poison….I never seem to complete what i really want to do. From 84km run to become 42km, Ironman dream become a normal passer by in the streets.

If life can suddenly transform and become like anime stories when Setsuna F Sei becomes a innovator and change the world with his brilliance light using Tram Am Burst or Kurosaki in Bleach when he becomes a Hollow Shinigami to save Onhime. *ROAR*

Actions speak louder than words… I got to work out my Vitamin M and muscles to think.